I remember when Spirit came into my world and I became aware of Jeshua entering into my heart and soul in a powerful way. I had not been a church goer and had not been thinking of him, or of the Angels when he/they came in.
At first I thought this was a call to return to the church but it soon became evident to me that what I was experiencing, the dramatic visions and traveling back though time, was something that the current form of Christianity could not accept.
They could certainly not accept re-incarnation.
I felt stifled in my speech. I wanted to share the absolute exuberance, coupled with the intensity of emotion that this experience did to me, but I felt in my heart that I could only go so far, and no further.
I felt truncated in my own personal expression.
And now we are living in the most dramatic time ever experienced on Earth. Surely now we can all step forward and share our hopes and dreams! But it seems to me that a certain version of communication has emerged, and people are lost in the quotations and sayings of others, supposed 'wise' people like Plato, Einstein, Rumi and others (did they never experience dark moments? Did Jeshua?), when all I wanted to hear was their voice and their experience, no matter how gritty.
It's like we've adopted the words and the platitudes of old time Christianity and god forbid anyone should come out with their own original thought.
It is disappointing because I feel we are squandering this moment where we could connect in a meaningful way. I don't need to know what Plato said, I studied him at school. I need to know how YOU feel and what you are going through right now.
Not a sanitized version of what you feel is appropriate for public consumption, but the laughter, the tears, the screams of joy and agony that you are going through. We must not forget that we are still dual in nature. Forcing ourselves to articulate expressions of bright bonhomie at all times, without sharing our natural human angst, can only lead to psychosis.
Accept all of me, not just the carefully scripted platitudes. I am not an android, I have not been created by AI. I am fully human, becoming Divine.
Just like you.